One Quarter Down!!!

It was just about a quarter ago we all were celebrating the New Year's Eve welcoming the year 2020 with exuberant levels of excitement and zest. Little did we know that this twin year had planned a pandemic of corona virus for all of us at the very beginning of this decade. 

At this point in time, a quarter of this year has already passed away and most of us around the world are locked down into our homes/locations. The prime agenda on everyone's head is #FightTheVirus; which has lead to nation wide lock-down along with a few stringent other actions. The basic idea is simple-- create social distancing and do not let this pandemic spread any further; eventually break the chain. Bas isse jyaada gyaan baatne ki aavashyakta nahi iss topic pe, atleast iss artcile me.

The bright side of the situation is that while most of the human clan have been asked to sit back and relax and by just doing this, the lowered human footprints on earth has allowed rest of the species evidently enjoy and reclaim their space back in nature. Therefore, overall this lock-down thing isn't that bad of an idea.  

Coming back to us humans, currently all the good great plans have been crashed and the simplicity of life just as basic survival has taken over. To be true, secretly I am loving it. There are several good-bad sides of the situation floating all around the internet already... thus, I am not getting into it. Rather want to express my happiness of 'living by your own-self' concept is a pleasure of its own kind.

This quarantine situation also brings my attention to yet another known fascinating concept called 'theory of relativity'. Like it was just about yesterday that we were celebrating the year end at NYE and blabbing around how amazing the year 2020 will be; looking forward to complete 12 months ahead of us to do stuff, beginning of the decade etc etc. Oh! well 3 months later I hear a lot of people complaining about how on earth are they suppose to pass this time, life is so boring etc etc. Certainly a 180 degree change of view in the thought process.

To further clarify, first of all- time always passes in an equal pace, it remain untouched and doesn't care to bother how we feel about it. But our feelings, those totally dependent on our ways of dealing with time. If we are happy it makes us feel the speed of time passing by, though time gives no fucks about how we feel or deal with it. Time shall continue to do what it was doing.... pass by at its regular own pace.

In the meanwhile, until the lock-down continues and our planet learns to deal with the virus situation; I urge all of you to enjoy your own company, cause if you can't do that, do expect others complaining when accompanied by you. Anyway, this too shall pass, lets pass it on with a smile. On that note, I wish all of you a great time to your self as its just one quarter down, we still have rest of year to deal with. :)

Waiting at a cliff, watching the sun settle and time pass by itself. Chittorgarh 2020. Ankita Jain 

Should you be around...

Under the stars... gazing at the moonlight,

life looks easy, just and might;

as the sea waves touch my feet,

the worries wash out and flow away, far away with the fleet; 

let the breeze be the essence,

and letting me walk over the set imaginary fence;

silver colored sand spread around,

gleaming beauties of fire-flies were to be found;

in that moment, just in that moment,

holding the past and spending the present;

this brief life of mine,

working too hard to out-do and shine;

have been thriving and trying to figure out,

little did I know about the actual whereabouts;

yet someday all of it shall be worth it;

to be there and not to be there, at the same time, seems fine; 

Under the stars... gazing at the moonlight,

life looks easy, just and might;

while I wait for the sun to rise, shine & bright;

should you be around,

yet again to let my heart skip a beat.

An Average's Cult

"Be wise to make your choices, remember that every choice is valid and it has its respective consequences." by Mr Devdutt Patnaik mentioned this one of his speeches drawing inferences from the Indian mythological stories. After all a person is nothing but a mix of all the random/intentional choices it made at one or the other time in it's lifetime.

There is common weirdness I observe in the chosen lives of mostly everyone around in the cities.  The foremost factor is to earn yourself a settled lifestyle, which is majorly a standard schedule template, i.e. wake up-work-eat-play-sleep-and repeat... also a few times Netflix & chill too. according to me, as of now this usual life is nothing but monotony that has held its grip over it. It is sad to know when people name it as a certain kind of settled lifestyle.

Really!

Surprisingly, this is what an ideally stated settled life and its style is by the so called norms of the current world. On second thoughts why does the notion of settlement with life has to happen so early upon with anyone or everyone.

Oh well! from my point of view its boring and I will never come to terms that it is absolutely fine to continue living like this for the rest of the time in life. It is such a waste of time living life such a way. Cause if you live like this monotonous way over and over again, are you even living?

This pattern much feels like unsatisfactory and unsettled. And personally, it further scares the shit out of me for sure. There is so much more to do, know, absorb and express... exploring life is an additional bonus for all of us. Yet most of us continue to remain unaware, hold back and be weary of living life. Sad, Isn't it?

Look I don't mean to be advising anyone to get into the adventurous mode like those fancy bloggers/vlogger do. I am sure those set of advises can be found all over the internet in plenty, trust me it doesn't help much if you just scroll down through those advises without acting upon them.

Being adventurous and stepping away from reality is fun for a while and stressful when it becomes medium of escapism. Cause apparently the liaison of being perceived as something you are not is even more burdensome. It also doesn't take you any farther, infact has enough more chances to pull you back.

Sometimes its better to not fix things around. It is even better to sit back and ponder, stare at the sky and wonder (about 'the how' and not 'the why' of a situation). I simply mean to say that it is okay to not be okay. Just know that its not okay.

And in my experience a confused state of mind is always better over a settled mindset. And the time for a settle mind is not so soon.

To find yourself you need to accept and understand yourself first... this is foremost important thing to do. Rest everything will be okay and follow through.

For now live it up one thing at a time. Eventually all your choices will gather up soon for better!!
Yeah, in the end it will for sure sum it up all by itself, until then its all chilled out :). 

At least I did like to think of it to be so.

Chalo bahut global gyaan ho gaya aaj ke liye!!

P.S.: I made an attempt to write down my confusions but guess this article will make you equally confused. Enjoy and leave your thoughts/comments below.  

'Love' is to choose and be!

 © 2013 Ankita Jain, All Rights Reserved. 

‘Love' is to choose and be,

Oh! rather it’s a mended concept coming from a knothole.

It often scares me as you could tap into my conscience...

with that one touch, those eyes staring deep across my soul.

No matter how much it is denied and defied,

your presence around me affects me and makes all my efforts shallow.

There is so much more to know, to express and to absorb... 

and yet we continue to remain unaware, hold on to ourselves and argue.

The catch here isn't that you can't have it your way, it is that you can't have all of it your way.

I believe, there is nothing right or wrong... at the very moment, what you do is do!

Cause 'Love' is to choose and be, 

Oh! rather it’s a mended concept coming from a knothole!!!

Somewhere in the middle of this year... 2018.

Okay! so we were celebrating New Year’s Eve just a while ago and its end of June 2018 already. It’s all of a sudden, the 'happy realization’ moment for me, wherein too much happens before one could even realize to live it for itself. Anyway, just like half of the year has passed by in a blink of an eye, rest of the 2018 shall pass too. 

So, some random thought hit me up this morning- what would it be like to wake up a couple of years ahead from now into the future life... seems adventurous yet scary; as I don't want to miss out on living some part of life and waking up to know nothing about that missed portion about myself. 

It could be that there is just too much happening around, though nothing specific but just enough of things/events and stuff taking me into a transformational form or sorts. And probably everything looks like too demanding of a situation to have my attention. For instance, while checking out any sort of media content on a daily news paper/channel or facebook/twitter/instagram, it mentions a hundred and more headlines from around the country, world or sometimes even universe, yet how much of it is really a NEWS for me as an individual; to be true mostly none of it is. And the fact that these set of news gets updated every minute, actually every second. That is too much of information to address and handle at the same time, isn't it? 

With that speedy update of news, situations are changing in itself at a rapid speed (in my head for sure) and of-course none other than the great ‘technology’ has to be blamed for that. Oh well! that is what the researches usually conclude as a statement on the situational crisis of such kind. I kind of disagree, cause technology alone has not grown enough to be completely blamed for this situation. Instead of understanding the core and to accept facts about the growing sense of impersonal behaviors is a must. Another 'happy realization' moment.

There are several studies and researches to back this up, yet to experience it live, all I had to do was to go out for a coffee by myself in a cafeteria and look around and not at my phone (for a change). The place was filled with people yet felt very empty. There was food which meant to be uploaded on social media more and for consumption less. There was music which did feel like noise. There were and could be so many other things which came into notice and yet got un-noticed. If ever I had to explain this situation in a word, I would call it arid. It felt like every-one (including myself) is rushing into something or somewhere and yet unable to reach at the set destination at all. It is all excessively distracted and it does happen to all of us repetitively. Resulting into a sense of being social yet the reality is anti-social kind of. Also by now I’m sure, I have begun to sound like a maniac.  

Am wondering what exactly am I trying to connect because I totally love everything that is there in my life, yet am missing out on.... may be the liveliness of life that felt a few years ago.  It was all just too enjoyable and eventful back then, when situation/people/lifestyle were not too advanced. Though somewhere running down the memory lane most of us must have thought in a similar way of life being amazing with technological advancements. While the advancement are now being a part of us and more than just an experience, keeping us more and more dependable on technologies and stuff.

                                         

Therefore, all i wish for is to set myself slightly aloof from the so called news and updates. And get this year 2018 which has gone by at lightning speed so far (at least for me), somehow somewhere slows down to get back the lost contentment and simplicity into my life again. Look around, be grateful and stay happy cause half the year is yet to happen ;).

Just two different sides

Stories, stories from everywhere; several of them; Yours-mine-ours;

Those with which we build several bridges in different walks of our lives… A few told and many of them remain untold.

Though someday, all of us too shall turn into a story.

This buzzing sound of ‘hurry’ all-around is loud and evident... 

In the similar vicinity there exists absolute silence, quiet and calm... 

While walking our way into an unknown pathway...

Seems everything is known about nothing...

Yet there is too much around for a living but

not much to earn a living... 

Having people from different kinds and origins crossing by...

Gorgeous mornings, Random days and Calm evenings...

Countless extremities to handle, bringing in turmoil and balance...

At the very moment, endless things to be dealt with the stance... 

Usual habitats have feather weight artifacts frost…

Mere intensity of emotions and feels are lost…

To begin is the toughest step they said,

Oh! Well so is the last step while situations end... 

Like every coin has two different sides, neither good nor bad...

Just two different sides... that's how our lives rides...

And then there are stories; 
Stories from everywhere, several of them, yours-mine-ours;

Those with which we build several bridges in different walks of our lives… A few told and many of them remain to ourselves.

And someday inadvertently, all of us too shall turn into a story.

In the middle of a night🤔

People, places and almost everything looks to be scattered, so much so that I wake up in the middle of this night to write down this piece of blog article. 

And as I understand, this is for sure bothering me for real; no, not writing this article but this unusual habit I have now of suddenly waking up from my sleep and jumping into a pool of thoughts coming in from in-between of anywhere and everywhere.

Okay, this might sound like a retard activity but right now there is an abundance of confusion in and and around me. Enough to make me as bemused as I could have ever be. 

To be true its difficult to word it out or explain this awkwardness. At once, I want it all & fight for all of it by myself. Also, at all other times; just want to let life happen the way it should. 
Rather I want to SCREAM at the top of a hill, CRY my heart out, KICK-OUT some serious stuff, LAUGH like never before, RUN endlessly... runaway from everything around; thinking that then I will never have to think of things the way I do. But that certainly is just not true.

Oh! But then things at my end certainly refrain to happen the way it was planned or wished for, leaving me with all the confusions and adversities to be dealt around. 

And I realize writing it all this way doesn't help any further, yet i am writing it down :P anyway. Also am aware that doing it this way simply adds to the set of confusions I already have over several bits existing around. 

Being sort of an optimist makes me think, that there definitely is a sense of assertive possibility in every way stated in this existence, yet the possibility that is expected or understood shall never take place in reality (in my case for sure). There is yet another angle to the situation which is not that it was never anticipated. It is probably that things and situations are more often anticipated just the way it should not happen than what should happen. 

Its like the way its said, "if want something you simply ask for it and let it be." Though what is actually done in most of the scenarios is totally opposite. Certainly, when and how it will not get to you is thought about a lot more times than how one could get to it. Guess, this where the basis of  'law of attraction' phenomena exists. 

Its in-between the wants and needs where all the fuss of the situation remains to be now and since forever. Choosing what is needed over the wants is not as easy as thought about. And as a matter of fact not many options available for me to act upon the current situation to let me play the hero part and have a make-n-break or bring-revolution-over-evolution kinds stories. Instead all of it is just beyond my capacity for me to handle it for myself. Also maybe i am too bored and reluctant to act anyway. 

And that certainly brings happy realization moment for me that-  I no more want and need anything beyond the realm of my own capacity. 

Usually the times when I am broke, I choose not to write but doing it this time is helping me look at the neutral side of the story. Guess making it an exception today has helped. 

For once and for all, being hopeful is the last bit of the thing I want to do where am wishing things to just happen where no fight is needed- in real and in my head. Like the feeling you get when i am saying it out loud to myself that “let it be, just don’t let it go”.

Today, all i need to do is be on the same page of reality as it is. Let the dirth walk away and make some room for myself to be and let this pass out without having much to do about it. Cause when given a choice, choose what is needed to be done is feasible over what is wanted to be done. Otherwise its just all much ado about nothing.

P.S.- Dear reader- I know it was way too random, and even if you can't understand the head or tail of this article, try not judging me. A few times, to understand exact meaning of things around is not all that you can do.