StandStiLL..

The world seems to have ended; yet I haven’t even started;

Too much to think about and sway and there’s equally much to give away!

These drifting emotions of having everything and nothing at the same time awkwardly reverberates the craziness inside me.

This feeling of awkwardness is burdensome enough...

Path which leads ahead is not smooth but rough...

To escape is not the solution I know...

Yet I haven't been left with any other option though!!!

And I wonder why is it that all of this is happening now!
It's been so regular to have  something or the other going on around in my world though today all of it seems to be at standstill...resulting into an unpleasantness.

It's strange but definitely the time to rearrange.
But somehow these words hold no meaning until they are proven to reality.

Ohhh wait for a second... Why am I even thinking so much!!
Somehow my inability for not being able to choose from all the wandering thoughts around me has simply crept into my inept desire.

Its really not the darkness that I fear from but letting the brightness go off and have no one beside....
And It just doesn't ends here; there is this weird noise buzzing around everywhere and at the same time I feel a sheer silence of emptiness inside. 
Don’t know what is this outburst about… is it just me or the world outside or maybe a mere blend of both?

Regardless to mention that a certain sense of impassiveness is there which is like never ending for me.
Its difficult to let it all relinquish as much as it is to persist to stay back... And as always being unstilted I would asked for more and more.

To choose from my own emotions is an intemperate activity to accomplish in itself. 

No matter how indulging this process is; today I want to miss that link of those thoughts and hold this moment for a while; stand by the outdoors, listen to the rhythmic rainfall outside, feel the breeze, watch the sun settle down and stay there until it rises.

Somehow this time during which the sun settles and rises up above again rejuvenates me... as always like a MAGICAL tune played on me.

To really know what this inquisitiveness is yet again a task but all that I could realise is that I can't fight a fact; I need to deal with it. I can't discard myself, I can just get started and be more of it. At the end compromising yourself is never worth it. You are all of it what you have got.

And this realization further evokes a thought in me which is such that; imperfection has it's own charm. To me perfection has rather been stagnant whereas imperfection simply allows me with enough space to grow and be better.

That is what makes me love the imperfection in me or in anything around me. Cause its the only way to seek a higher self.

True that It's only when everything around gets to be dark... You get a chance to shine like a star...!