Sometimes
I wish I wasn’t me….
Sounds
a little dramatic, yet I’m sure it would be interesting enough to try that
someday… cause since a while until now…. my mind has been into a constant
conflict with my heart about this feeling of weirdness which has been crumpling
inside me…. as if all the desires have been left with no meaning… and my instincts
don’t seem to be believable…
And
with each day passing by I’m left with this autocratic thought of confusion forcing
me to choose between reality and my credence….
But
something more interesting happened to me this morning; while sitting on the steps,
looking around the neighborhood, wondering why, life at times, can seem not so great.
But in that second, it took me to just think; that my life could change faster
than a blink…. And probably that mere thought of change made me question myself;
“Is this a reason why we should cherish our
lives the way it is?
Not
knowing when our loved ones may suddenly perish. Living everyday, like it was our
last, for our days could be very long or go by very fast.”
And
also as one of the most famous dialogues of a hindi movie goes along saying, ‘haso,
muskurao, khush raho…… kya pata kal ho naa ho’
I
discovered myself to be soo dumb in itself, that all this while I have given
enough consideration to my struggling strife…. without realizing the
authenticity of being blessed enough to come along so far with much more
happiness than sadness in this journey of life….
I’m sure that it not too late to entice all those beautiful moments of joy and
jubilance.
Certainly I wish to attach all of them in a single thread, which will help me to hold them forever
along with me to feel the bliss and rejoice along with it….
Time
has changed and will change further… who knows what is going to stay forever…
One thing being sure that life is being wasted while the time we spend preparing to live it through….
Therefore
I’m going to let it all go and live it up with the flow… as there shall be no
way to get away if I keep choosing between things around without living the
intensity of that spur of moment.
So
now henceforth I wish to cherish each moment of my life and take nothing for
granted, not say things that shouldn’t be chanted. If this were the last day I
would have on earth, I would greatly accept my life, for what it’s been worth
all this while.
Tomorrow
isn’t promised to me or to anyone else around, don’t wait for tomorrow, do it
all today, if tomorrow never comes, you’ll never regret a day… cause if everything around is not going right, it doesn’t means that everything is meant to be wrong as well…. And as the sun
shines and stars keep twinkling I can always keep trying to fit in my dreams
accordingly…
Ultimately
to wrap up on the whole I now wish that I don’t forget to keep smiling for all
the dearests people around me and myself as well cause I have lately comprehended
the fact that my life may not be perfect; yet it’s definitely far away from
imperfection… and that should be a good enough reason to hold that piece of grin
along with me and be the way I am !!!! J
