Every year end comes with abundant hopes for new beginnings. With each passing year I have developed a practice to introspect and improvise myself. As we all unanimously thought 2020 was a though year but hello 2021 has been a roller coaster ride too. It came along with several ups and a few downs, here and there of its own. As a ritual I am only journaling the facets of eventually how this year went by for me. Here we go...
Uncertainty is indeed an everyday affair. We like it or not, it is needed to be dealt with utmost care. There have been umpteen numbers of hours invested in planning, thinking and figuring out or fitting in perfection into anything I am attempting to do. sooner or later, all of it falls flat as against to these uncertain aspects of situational dramedy my life has made special arrangements for me. Not that I have yet let these uncertainties affect my the planning part to be left to procrastination or bypassed. Alongside, only learnt to create a room for not so contingent apprentices will never hurt much. It shall only further add enough masala to unusual routine affairs.
Surprises can easily convert into shocks and vice-versa. In both the cases I do make a fool out of myself. The entire year has been a bunch of incidences falling prey to situational whereabouts. These have brought both delightful and adverse feels. Anyway, I love the mix bag of emotions which comes along in these surprisingly shocking times.
Expect the unexpected. With passing time, growing age & experience, I thought things & people around would get predictable. It will be super easy to anticipate actions and reaction of myself and others too. But then, it usually doesn't works in this fashion. And in most cases I have now learned to distinguish the nature of reality verses how it appeared in my imagination. It serves the only purpose of amusing introspection to myself.
Consistency is the key to transformation. I went through some decent healthy lifestyle and physic change. It was earned after following daily workout sessions and some strict diet plans. A lot of the credit goes to my fitness coach and the fact that I dedicated the disciplined side of myself to it. Everyone acknowledged with praises and opinions on the tangible change they saw in me. Though only few could understand I am headed toward only being a healthier version of myself.
Learning to say 'No' is an art, and I am learning it slowly but steadily. I have never been a yes person yet saying no or even expressing my discomfort towards anything was a task for me. Figured out in a few situations that the answer can be nothing else but no. The good part about it is that saying it courageously in a straight forward manner comes with enormous contentment.
Family and Friends are weird yet too dear. Sure things is that they have to be handled with care and ignorance. They will get demanding, at least the ones around me does more than often. No matter how much so ever you offer yourself to them, some of it it will get missed or unattended. At times when these closed ones get difficult to manage all I think I can do is agree to disagree with them on a few of the incidences. To accept that it is okay to be flawed and still love every near and dear ones is the real deal. Since I ain't a chocolate cake or gajar ka halwa, I can't make everyone of them happy but at least I tried is good enough for me.
World is a beauty and so is 'Tawang'. A trip that came along with experiences of exhilarating exuberance. On this trip nature in form of mountains & river-fronts rubbed their magic on me like never before. Everything about this trip has been spectacularly razzle-dazzles. You can read my experience in much detail here. In addition to the experience and joy of visiting this heaven on earth has been that I found the exact kind of house design and lifestyle I want to build for & around myself. All those enormous inspirations I draw from this trip, adds to the bank of hope for goodness and prosperity for me and everyone around as well, to make world a better place. I know it sounds kind of cliché, but that's okay.
Travel, travel and travel. The best part about travelling is that it gets me excited to plan my next travel plan while I am already in a journey. It actually happens to most of us. And I guess I am always too tempted, excited and a certain kind of greedy when it comes to travelling. Undisputedly, I love being a constant voyage. The charm of packing & unpacking, prepping the arrangements of comfort food, jumping from one destination to another, collecting human stories in a personal narrative form, hustling to make the best use of the limited time I have on each of my trips, soaking in all of it and etc. Noting down most of my experiences in a diary (its a self created ritual), only to not have missed any of these precious moments on some of the times in future when I decide to look back on my own travelling saga.
Investment needs to be a regular habit. Earlier this year I came across this amazing book called The Almanack of Naval Ravikant wherein a few simple and effective tactics of compound interest were shared. It was an wonderful read because a heavy topic of investment was majorly explained through different simplified thread of tweets. It added to my knowledge on how to grow money from my money in an easy DIY fashion. Ever since that I have been recommending this book and encouraging most of my peers to develop this habit ASAP.
Jugaad pe duniya tiki hai, hum kaam toh kar hi sakte hai. Its been over a year, I have had a standard traditional form of working contract, thanks to turmoil created by the pandemic. Instead, I began looking out for different arenas of work and projects. I am glad, I could find projects, people and organizations matching my interests. This process has most definitely demanded a lot of my time & attention, alongside made me realize the strength of my potential in a positive manner.
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'Yeh ho kya raha hai life me!'
Copyright 2021. Ankita Jain |
Discovering my own self has been a perpetual task.
I am glad to have been on it for acing this one task of life. I firmly believe there is no particular reason to settle down with myself or reason out my doings. I am on it for this task not for any superfluous philosophy of life. I am on it for the fact that I can intrigue myself, time and again. I want to persistently remain equivalent to soft sand, ready to adapt and mold itself into every new possibility. I want to be all different forms of femineity such as a Goddess, a Queen, a Ninja, a Wanderer, a Goofball and sometimes all of it at once. I want to reflect upon myself every year (like just now) to be grateful for being able to have come this far. Honestly, there is much gratification for living up all of it with grace and kindness.
Also, not to forget, Timing is the real bitch. Re-iterating the fact that no matter how many perfect plans I am going to make, the universe will always have something bigger and better designed in it for me. As the new year is nearing and like every calendar year I am headed to make new plans for every anticipated aspect of life. Equally, excited to live up the changes our dear universe is going to make in those plans while all of it comes to execution. Assertively hoping 2022 to be a whole deal of uniquely eased betterment. Fingers Crossed.
